Monday, May 24, 2010

homesick.

since we returned from australia, i've been desperately homesick. not homesick in the sense of missing a particular place or person or thing (though those moments certainly aren't absent), but of longing to establish a home. in whatever country and city i find myself in, i want to invite friends over to sit on the couch that we picked out ourselves, to drink coffee from my favorite yellow mug, to borrow movies and books with no need to return them any time in the near future.

it's now been nine months since we arrived in new zealand, and we're becoming more and more aware of our need to make a decision about where we'll be two months from now, two years from now. and yet, feeling detached from the places that have been our homes in the past, the city and even the country that we'll end up in are now completely up for grabs. we have until august 20th to renew our visa (at a hefty price) or board a flight headed out of the country. where next?

-rachel
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  1. AnonymousMay 25, 2010 at 4:43 AM

    I love traveling because it brings the obvious benefit of learning first hand about new people and places combined with the thrill that comes with having to fulfill your various needs on a daily basis in ways that aren’t necessary when at home. A less obvious benefit is the one that you are experiencing right now on the emotional level and that only comes with long periods away. Nine months out of your comfort zone you have mastered the ability to take care of yourselves in a strange place and are now completely free to define what and where home is. Most people never experience that freedom. The feeling may be uncomfortable, but savor it; it doesn’t come often in life. Dad D

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